"I already have it"

A little while back I got asked a simple question – “do you want happiness?”

I sat there for a second a little a pause. Because of course who doesn’t want happiness – I absolutely I want happiness – but what does that mean?

As I have expressed probably a few times now, I truly see especially in this last year I am in place of transformation. So, when I was asked ‘do you want happiness’ – it took me a minute to answer because I had to think about ‘what does happiness really mean to me’?

It almost seems like the moment we are born (in the USA) the notion of the American Dream is placed in our head – that is how I have viewed the way to measure ‘happiness’.

I followed the blueprint as best I could – got my degrees, bought my first home at a young age, got a well-paying job, etc etc. – I felt like I was on my way to creating the American ‘happiness’ dream. But as I have gotten older, happiness doesn’t mean the same thing to me anymore.

Do not get me wrong, I am happy with most my life choices – they have afforded me a good lifestyle but I have truly learned over the course of the years with some good reflections, therapy and journaling - happiness has to start from within.

As I have been reflecting over that question much more this past weekend in particular – and I can truly say that I am happy – because I am so happy within.

I am not going to sugar coat this – I have been putting in WORK to get to this place. I have had to and continue to have very honest conversations with myself related around this space of happiness and peace. I talk to a therapist weekly who has helped me to get to this place. And a lot of prayer. (mom's prayers too!)

Getting to a place where you are happy with life regardless – is such a beautiful place to be in. I am at peace – I work at making good choice to help me stay in this space. I know life will throw curveballs. But I am focused on enjoying life regardless of the element. My main focus is to live and enjoy life. So, in this space I am definitely choosing happiness.

I am charting the course on what happiness means to me – because when I go to bed at night – I want to make sure I am at peace with myself.

The best thing that came out of the question I got from the person asking ‘do you want happiness’ – I realized I already have it and much more.

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